My Self-Publishing Journey – Lesson #5: Writing Is My Passion

Welcome to the final post of my five-post series! Last week I talked about the fourth thing I learned on my journey to publishing my novel – you’re not going to make any money. You can read the previous posts in the series here

Although I’m still pretty new in my “published-ness,” I’m still on an important journey. This is my publishing dream! Whether the book sells or flops (it’s selling, so fingers crossed that continues!!), it’s still a pretty awesome achievement.

However, it can be frustrating and crushing, especially when things don’t go well, and with so many pitfalls, many would-be writers give up..

This is why I didn’t.

The Ups And Downs

When my eBook went live on 31 March 2017, I had a panic attack.

The first in quite some time. I’d been stressing in the days leading up to the launch, wishing I had another week, another month, another year to polish and refine and get it perfect.

Deep down in my heart I knew the book was half-decent, otherwise I’d never have published it! But the anxiety was not so easily squashed. Not quite a publishing dream, more a nightmare!

Everyone would see the weaknesses and not the strengths, wouldn’t they? So why did I put myself through it? Why do I continue to market the book? Push myself through the stress and anxiety? Why do I still get butterflies when I see I’ve made a sale, or someone leaves a review?

Because writing is my passion.

I Have The Writing Bug (would you believe it, through my procrastination!?)

If I don’t write for a few days, I feel the bug creeping in. Even if I write a page or two of nonsense, the bug begs to be acknowledged.

I’m honoured to be part of the fantastic writing group, Garage Fiction. It’s comprised of people from all across the world, with all manner of strengths and expertise. Being part of a supportive community is wonderful, and, I’d say, absolutely necessary.

You can feel very alone when you write, with no measure to see if you’re improving or just writing drivel. It’s scary to share what you’ve written (especially something unedited!), because you feel vulnerable. You’re opening up the world to what goes on inside your mind, and the world can be a very harsh place that does not hold back if it dislikes something.

But Writing Is My Life

Publishing a novel is an achievement that can never be taken away, and I long to improve my craft and refine the process and do it again, and again, and again, until the whole series is released and my next publishing dream is achieved! The pleasure of writing ultimately outweighs the fear of judgement.

Lesson: Writing is a collaborative process. Writing constantly evolves, and it’ll never be perfect, so focus on continuous improvement, take the compliments when they come through, and push through the negatives.

P.S. I hope you enjoyed this blog post (and are enjoying the series)! If you have any comments or questions, feel free to get in touch below, or through Garage Fiction’s social media. You can also email me direct! lauren@llmcneil.com.

P. P. S. If you’re interested in grabbing yourself a copy of my novel (adventure fantasy!) then you’re in luck!

 

Read the other lessons here: onetwothree, four.

You can buy Moroda in paperback directly through my website.

You can buy Moroda as an eBook through Amazon.

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